Known

Cave drawings of horses wrangled, phone numbers on bathroom stalls, overshares on social media, just to be known. For some its a tincture of fame, for others a remembrance before the funeral, a test of love and devotion. I want to be known. I want for my words to braid themselves in the minds of […]

Grateful

Grateful. Wooden signs, distressed shabby chic, in every household with the word, grateful. Sometimes I think about how long I think about a word and think to myself that I’m an exhausting person. But, like, in a good way. In a good way. The most back-handed compliment, a flavored seltzer water. It tickles the nose […]

Mom’s Packing List

We bring with us what we have received, accepted, and stored. Kind or cruel words, glances in mirrors turned to funhouse walls. Then we have the choice to discard, recycle, or regift these thoughts and feelings. I thought since today is Mother’s Day, I would let the universe borrow all of the beauty that is […]

What people?

I think it only appropriate to start up my long forgotten blog again while in New York. Almost three years ago I was working in the city and I wrote the story of my first cross country road trip. I was (and still am) embarrassed submitting and then re-reading what I wrote. My face as […]

The First Frontier

I’m back to where I was when I was wild. When my brain didn’t know what being in love was or wasn’t. I’m back to that blank slate, grayness with bright white all shining, soft, and severe. I believe the longer a relationship, the more deliciously rich and complicated it gets. I also believe that […]

Dreaming of Africa

I can get overwhelmed sometimes by all of the places I want to see. There’s musts and there’s maybes and there’s things I haven’t heard of yet. But since before I thought about any of this, I dreamed of Africa. The safaris and markets, the plains and Mt. Kilimanjaro. Where it seemed like the wild […]

Can VS Want

I’m not so naive as to think my most stressful day is behind me. I have seen enough of the unexpected to learn to expect the most and least out of an ordinary day. That being said, my first day as a camp nurse made my blood course with a force I have only felt […]

Pinkies Up (ft Jesus)

This post won’t come as a surprise to anyone who read about my trip to Iceland. I’m all packed up to go to Napa Valley for the third time in my life, and I’m thinking about the first time I laid eyes on the beautiful valley, licking french fry grease from my fingers. Kath and […]

Everyone and their mother in Iceland.

The day I came back to work, I could not stop bragging about my solo trip to Iceland. I had bought a plane ticket 12 hours before I left for my five day stretch off. This was not received well or at all by my co-workers because I did not know them at all yet. […]

The Beauty of Uncertainty

My cousin was everything I wanted to be and more. More importantly, I could tell that we were family. In the ICU, uncertainty is the main ingredient. The lobster in the bisque. The cabbage in the slaw. You don’t know what you’re leaving with that day as a healthcare worker or a visitor. You simply […]